So I just returned from spending time with a friend in New York (and no, I did not go to ground zero) and I am left with a very strange feeling in my heart. Lately I have begun to feel like all my relationships have alzhiemers disease and it really is driving me crazy. It's as though the relationship proresses and grows and you just get really to feel safe and secure inside of it and then 'Woah Nellie!' it very quickly starts regressing and shrinking until it feels like it was never really there at all.
I have always been the type to keep relationships going far after the experation date. I have never been able to just accept that relationships change and you get to a point where it's time to let them go. That way of thinking is beyond me. I can't let go. I really can't pinpoint why this is such a problem for me. I have a sufficient amount of friends that I wouldn't just be hanging on to past relationships in desperation even tough sometimes I feel like that's the case.